=+~My Life Stories+=~

11/02/2009 01:21:00 PM | Monday, 2 November 2009

~=+Weekend+=~

Argh!

how shud i pen this week's bloggy? hmm~ its kinda disappointing i shud say. I met jeffy on soft, thinking we wana do a nightwish and evanesence project .. but things never wrk out cos bassist was busy with wrk. Staurday cancel, sunday also kenot make it. so it has to be postpone till next wk..

hopefully it will happen ... ~DOUBTFUL~

i went drinking...FINALLY!! on Friday with Kash and the chambers' gang. Fun Friday. Got home half drunk and PUKED!! its so SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO long since i last touched alcohol. lols..

spend my saturday shopping for groceries. Cooked dinner for my family. Went to NTUC, carried a HEAVY, FUCKING HEAVY grocery bag.

And LOOK WAD HAPPEN TO MY SHOULDER after i lug the darn grocery bag home??

Fucking pain. Till now its aching ... shits...

Cooked 3 dishes that saturday. 1) Spinach with seafood toufu
2) Black pepper mushroom
3) Stir fried pork with ginger, spring onion with a dash of rice wine, green n yellow pepper and cashew nuts...........

Brewed a whole big pot of soup -- Radish, carrot, dried squid n dried japanese scallops with a dash of pepper ... ----> TOOK 2 LONG FUCKING HOURS TO BREW IT so that it taste GOOD!!

Packed some of the food over to mummy's so that daddy can have dinner. And.. fucking hell, rice cooker not wrking i had to go to coffee shop to buy white rice. IT was raining ANIMALS that nite .. i had to carry a darn umbrella but still .. i got half drenched!!!!!!!!!!

then i packed some for a friend.. and he AEROPLANE ME!!! claim that he got very busy at work and had to slp at his wrk place.. i only manage to get an explanation of his M.I.A exactly 12hrs later ... n he told me he got nothing to say abt his busy-ness... haiz ..

well well ... we shall see wad goes on the next wkend ...

~=+Shynna's Efforts Gone with the RAIN+=~

Surrealistic Shynna

10/30/2009 05:31:00 PM | Friday, 30 October 2009

~=+Its Friday Again+=~

Yeah ..

its another Friday. Time for another relax wkend with my family. anyway, i juz gotten my confirmation letter today but juz to realise that my I/C number and designation has been typed wrongly. duhz ..

nvm .. i can wait till monday to get it.

relax Friday ... and ----------->

hahaha ... i am wearing this in the office ...

Finally .. a stabalized income. and be able to clear all my other bad debts real soon. ^^

in the meantime ~STRIVE~

~=+Shynna is Striving Hard+=~

Surrealistic Shynna

10/24/2009 01:21:00 AM | Saturday, 24 October 2009

~=+A Little Recent Update+=~

I have left this bloggy dead for so long. There are times i reli wana juz destory this page for gd. But think of the efford of me doing this up and all those memories, being good or bad, most of which are written here ..

I once told 2 ppl before - memories, lets treat sweet memories as a moment to remember and bad memories as lesson learnt.

Perhaps is like what my aunt said about me, "I have learn thru my broken marriage and am working toward being a better person"

I always tell myself that I am picking myself up from a bad fall. But rarely, i'm just lying to myself. Drink, get drunk, cry, be a drama mama queen. These days are long gone. ~OVER~ The euphoria .. the dreams are just about to begin. I finally learn the essence of being cool and calm.

And i should add that, I have finally pick myself up and am heading somewhere. Those friends who understand me, stood by me. They don't pressure me as they know my plight. I am taking one foot at a time and things have been not the same anymore.

I need more time still. At the very moment, things are slowly taking its form. And i can fore see great things are going to happen if i continue what i am doing now. - work, go hom, work, go home cycle.. - on going for like 2 months in fact. and i am close to my family now.

Still, I have to say, give me more time. I will make a difference this time. Forgive me if I have taken so long to strive. Now, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. And I dug the exit with my own bare hands. Now its only a glimpse but the glimpse of hope will develop into a BIG BIG escape for me..

~=+Shynna still need time+=~

Surrealistic Shynna

9/16/2009 01:29:00 PM | Wednesday, 16 September 2009

~=+Missing+=~

Hi all

i wonder did anyone miss me? i hve been mia so long. no hp.. no msn.. no nothing ...

life is all work n no nonsense.. and the fact that i have been trying so hard to do something that i oways been wanting to do -- forming a band.

been ever searching for like a months or 2 now .. no luck.
i either approached by kids who wana do paramore .. or it will be some ppl whom jam dates never came.

did went to jam finally last friday.. not too bad. iron maiden, megadeth and black sabbath.. not forgetting metallica too... but then i doubt that there will be a next session with these guys again... i sense something wrong. but not too sure what it is. those guys are not being honest with me .. or maybe its me being sensitive (that's me now after wat that bitch did to me)..

i dun trust no one... only my own gut feelings to guide me the way ...

argh~~ .... help ~~

~=+Shynna loves to play missing+=~

Surrealistic Shynna

6/28/2009 08:54:00 PM | Sunday, 28 June 2009

~=+Probably The Last Post+=~

Have been so tied up with my work and family issues lately that i have not been writing. after trying to pick myself up so many times in life, i feel that i am back to where i started off with again... after he left... life will never be the same. i have no one to turn to, no one to sheild me from the silence and the ugliness of the world anymore...

i feel that i have seen everything clearly for this past one whole mth. i am now left on my own to go ahead with life.. there are many tings i wana share but then, i cant find the possible worlds in my mind to pen them down here.

time flies.. the world still revolves... n animals are evolving.. shud i say this is wad is called survival of the fittest? ppl fight for things, therefore i lost someone so precious to me cos i took him for granted all this while...

the story that lays behind all the laughters and the tears.. i am all mixed up .. my feelings i bottled up, keep telling myself that i have to be strong and move on with live. dun wana look back ... but deep inside i am screaming at the top of my voice .... telling myself that i am sorry for the thngs that i have done .. telling him how much i love him and how much i love him ... and wad have i become when he is no longer with me ...

i wana tell him so many things ... there are so many things that i would do to make him come back.. let us start afresh .. but no ... he will never ever come back to me ever again no matter how hard i try... i miss him ... n love him .. with every fibre of my cold black heart. i wan him to knw that if given a chance, i would die for him, i would gif up anyting juz to turn back time to where we used to be again....

wad can i do to ever do that? i dun understand how come i dun deserve his attention anymore after all these times of trying... i dun understand wad a vixen with 3 kids are so great abt a woman who once stood by him thick n thin...a woman who has betrayed him and he too betrayed... the hurts that we had inflicted into each other for so many yrs..

someone whom has accompany me from 17 to 27.. someone who watch me grow up ..

our maple story days... our movie marathon days.. days of watching heroes... days of nua-ing together ... i missed the way he practice jiu-jit-tsu on me too...

i learn to appreciate F1, learn to put up with soccer... learn the art of martial arts fighting and muay thai boxing. learn things that he enjoy to have things to share with him.. cook his favourite dishes when he came bk frm biz trip ... try to remain calm when things happen ... how come all these are juz not enough ??? i am now the perfect person that he wants me to be ... but all my efforts seems to be wasted...

all i wan him to knw is that ... things have gone by one mth.. it seems like ytd still .. nothing has changed much.. i am still waiting for his smses.. his phone calls.. waiting for his return one day to tell me that i am de perfect wife for him ....

i wana continue to care for him, be there for him.. despite the fact that he has changed... all these 10 over yrs of watching over each other ... all these sleepless nights of quarrels and fights... how come everything has to be given up cos of a vixen who pretended to be my friend?

i tot i can forget ... but after all these while..i reli miss him so much deep inside.. i still cry when i see all those photos.. i cry when miss him .. i dream of him every night when i sleep.. n that is probably the only place i can get to see him from now on ...... things happen so quickly that i have to force myself to be strong. do things that i like to drown myself out from the pain he left behind... the silence.. the dark nights when i'm all alone...

~=+Shynna is waiting for the day he return+=~

Surrealistic Shynna

5/13/2009 01:24:00 AM | Wednesday, 13 May 2009

~=+ Guilt or Running Away From Reality+=+!

Ok ...

I ask a few ppl abt this thing.

What would make a person
1)delete away your whole blogger address?
2) delete away your msn?
3)close down your friendster account n facebook account?

i gotten a few ans....'

some say is cos pf guilt..

some say cos dun wan let ppl knw wad u did in de past n juz wana start anew

some say juz cos u r a dead person ........................

tell me which ans u belong to.. i reli wana know ...

~=+Shynna wana knw the truth cos i miss u so much=+~

Surrealistic Shynna

5/06/2009 11:13:00 PM | Wednesday, 6 May 2009

~=+Finally ...Time to Write Something+=~

WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW~~~~~~~~~~~~

how long have i not been writing here? ish~~~ i've been so tired n worn out that i dun have the time to write man...

okok ... so today's post will be longer ... much much longer den usual cos its the updates of most of the recent happenings that had been going on.

Hmmm~~ i have been working in this new n fucked up company for close to 3mths... and ppl there are ... well .... same.... political and only wana save their own asses. and nevertheless i have to put up and tolerate with each n every one of those idiots there, fighting for a kuku dog bone.

kk.... photo updates on May 1st family lunch..
1stly is the spread of food below... yummy yummy .....

enjoy life rite??
then ... there are my wonderful cousins and of cos my daughter, nicole.

and then ... some family time ....
my grandparents ... and me n my baby cousin...

then after that went to meet trissy for coffee and shop shop ... daniel tagged along later that evening on may 1st ...

we went to shop.. then after which we went to sake sushi for dinner ... yeah~~ my favourite..
just take a look at the sashimi combo that we ordered!! wow~~

AND..... LOOK AT THAT WIDE OPEN MOUTH~~

the happy man gets his sushi!!

yayaya.... den that was how i spend my public holiday ... all on food.. no wonder im putting on more weight!!

the following saturday i went to meet my bestie... joanne and christine for beer .. den went home early to kip nicole company .. sians lo ... den came bk again to another monday blue...

after work went to drink with ah hao.. went for cheap beer .. fking hell ... hp went out of batt den no more photos to up... ish!!!!

k lo ... eventful rite? more eventful than when i was with lifeless charles. at least im doing things i like now. wahahahaha

ok la ... dunno wat write abt for now .. will blog again when i have time .. i wana go hit they hay stacks now ... nitey

~=+Shynna found her life back+=~

Surrealistic Shynna